Today it’s Van Morrison who caught me off guard while I was driving home from grocery shopping. He caught me so damn hard… oh man, the feels. I had to pull over, as I sat in the car alone and wept like a child.
Hey, where did we go?
Days when the rains came
Our hearts a-thumping…
And whatever happened
To Tuesday and so slow?
So hard to find my way
Now that I’m all on my own
I saw you just the other day
Cast my memory back there, Lord
Sometimes I’m overcome thinking ’bout it
It hit me like a ton of bricks.
We never had a chance to say goodbye.
She slipped away so quietly in the fog… yeah I talk to her like she’s still here with me but I know… oh do I ever know it today. I pour my heart and soul into being the best caregiver possible and to preserve every last piece of Heather’s person, but it’s getting harder to see her through all that. There’s a little less left every week. I latch on to every little smile or laugh at something we laughed at together for the past almost 5 decades… I hold it so tightly, but it’s getting harder to see through the fog.
Today is a tough today. Tomorrow will be a fresh day.
Stay strong John, you’re not alone.
Your message was so moving. I can only imagine how you must be feeling. I’ve got tears in my eyes now, too ❤️
You truly are not alone my friend. ❤️🩹
Perfectly said, Dave. 💙
You are not alone but there will be times when you are overwhelmed. It is difficult to be losing bits of Heather each day. Cherish the moments when you see the other Heather. You are taking it one day at a time, which is all you can do.
Van Morrison is one of my all time favorites. Yeah it sounds like that song and the grief got ahold of you that day and that was probably a good thing to let off a little pressure.
I bet you can do some of his stuff if you decide to gift us with another Tiny Desk Concert. He’s so prolific and has done such a large variety of songs. Peace to you.
Oh, John… Feel my arms around you both. 💗