Beyond the big daily challenges, there are also the micro-frustrations. I’m usually pretty good about staying calm and maintaining an even keel, but this morning I “lost it.” In my world, that means I experienced a burst of angry frustration that I mostly kept to myself.
After returning from the McDonald’s drive-through, where we got Heather an Egg McMuffin as a treat, I made myself a slice of toast with peanut butter. As always, Heather can sense when food is being prepared, and she usually hovers at my elbow the whole time. This constant hovering is a source of irritation when I’m trying to put a meal together. This morning, I managed to get her away from me while I made my toast. I placed the snack on a side table, half-hidden behind a mug, while I went back to the kitchen to pour myself a coffee. But when I turned to sit down and enjoy the toast, there she was, holding it, half-eaten.
Now I have to hide and sneak my snacks and food, which is somewhat irritating. There are other similar micro-irritations throughout the day, and they all contribute to the constant feeling of tiredness. I’ve accepted that it’s OK to feel this way.